idk what wrong with me today feeling no mood and stuff today was gonna go out with friends to watch movie but idk whats wrong i just dont feel like going and in the end no one had gone out and i even lie to them that i need to go to my grandmother house today so that i can just stay at home my heart feel like its gonna burst and idk why and i keep thinking about who am i really and thinking back to the past how i even met them and hang out with them but i just cant remember what the hell is wrong with me anyway few hours ago i even think about killing myself so that i can end this life of mine i wonder what going on with me right now i really miss been my oldself the cheerful boy i was and now im just a lonely and emo boy ... what is going on why did i become like this i really cant understand thats all for today gonna go sleep now hope that tomorrow will be a good day and hope that it will rain ........
